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i had a dream last night. about ______. haha, a few of us went to this vacation thingy in the country where there were many trees and animals and the house of this lady who we called ah yee was really old fashioned and was surrounded by a fence called the rabbit fence. to prevent the rabbits from coming in as she had a huge field to run in. apparently during this trip i was really close like really really really close to ______ and we did everything together like sit eat play sleep everything and like stood up for each other and stuff like twins? haha i dont know how to decribe a relationship like that. relationships like those dont exist anymore in my life. he loved me more than he loved anyone else and i loved him more than anyone else in a friendly way. he knew everything that i liked and disliked, how i would react and all he could read my mind. during the first day we were there some wild animals/machines (cant remember) ripped off the fence and we were unguarded. the next day, the ah yee caught many rabbits and placed them in traps i then found out that she was a hunter and killed animals for a living. i have this thing about dead animals and blood and shooting and violence and gross stuff. i really cant stand it ill puke and cry (true in real life). ______ first found out and told everyone not to tell me and i overheard them and found out. then while exploring the house with ______ we stumbled upon this area of land that was above the ground that had rows and rows of cages and traps some with kittens/ cats/ dogs/ foxes/ chickens/ rabbits inside all still alive. and i saw the ah yee there cleaning some cages. ______ saw my face and put his arm around me and held my hand and i remember this conversation.
me: ______, do they really kill those animals?
______: yea. she does that for a living.
and i started crying and we climbed onto that area of land and asked the ah yee if we could play with those animals for one last time. the ah yee said ok so we did. we walked down rows and rows of cages looking at the animals his arm still around me. then suddenly the grass turned to stone and the stone floor became wet. the cages transformed into fish tanks with huge fishes inside swimming around. i have this fear of huge fishes or anything that lives in water that is big. (true in real life) the fishes swam around staring at me with those huge lifeless eyes. water was overflowing from each tank. rows and rows of huge tanks filled with fish and overflowing with water, splashing on us. rows and rows swishing from side to side, some in tanks too small for them in panic they struggled spilled water. all around me surrounding me, those huge lifeless eyes of despair those downturned mouths with rows of teeth some even with only one eye swishing about spilling the murky green water on us. i screamed and screamed and screamed. i woke up covered in sweat and tears and smsed ______ thankyou. it seemed so real, too real.
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