had a bad dream last night.
we were at this garden thingy where there were huge ponds filled with dudongs and fish and platypuses and all. and there were these stepping stones through the pond where you could walk across and first you went across and i was carrying my school bag and i ran across but slipped and fell into the pond and i could see the fish swimming around me and the platypuses swimming in front of me and the dudongs tail brushing against my skin and i struggled up onto the rock screaming and i fell in again with the dudongs mouth brushing against my hand and the platypuses beak against my shin and i climbed out of the pond and screamed and cried. woke up tangled hot and sweaty with a fever. not going for kfc today.
this fear is getting worse each day. elsa wanted to go to the underwater world but i wouldnt be able to take it. so were going to the night safari or zoo instead.